The Investor

It doesn’t get any better. It only gets worse. They say it’s like that when you lose a dear one too. In the beginning peeps are there for you but it’s only after the initial blow and letting go and you’re really back to being all alone, that you feel the real and raw pain of missing something which is just really hard to explain. It’s been two weeks since I had to leave BC. And it becomes painfully more obvious to me; that (time:3:00 am) the place where I am is not where (word count:73)I belong to be: BC!

This town is like a relationship I used to have. That relationship mirrored everything back to me, that represents duality. That relationship is back to neutral. It just was. This town is neutral too. My family? Just is as well. But once you’ve outgrown the cocoon, it is impossible to go back and get used to it, all over again. Like I said: a butterfly would die if it would have to go back into the cocoon. (time:3:03 am)And that’s me. I’m suffocating. Choking. Giving up on life. I already fought the fight of my life. I survived. Next I thrived. I can’t go back to having to fight and survive.

Working a normal every day job? Can’t do. Ney-sayers will say:”Can’t or won’t?” I say:”Both.” I’d rather die than having to go back to (word count:212) where I used to be at. It’s not a threat. It’s a fact. You’re not responsible for that. I am. I don’t wanna work for uncle Sam. I work for me. My voice; my heart. And you know what the beauty bout that is? I indirectly work for the whole of humanity. Working for your heart is working for the greater good. (time:3:07 am) That’s the way it should be. But who am I? Just a chickie who no longer wants to be called chubb-eeee face and who wants to be done with this Amazing Race.

I want to be free. In my mind I am. But I also want to be free physically. For that; I need money. Are we only free with money? No. True freedom is in the mind. Nevertheless: we live in a place where time/space and space/time meet. It’s where we greet: matter. Money matters. Money is how we trade on earth. The more Oneness on this planet will birth; the more peeps will see that it’s worth to invest in what we can’t see. Like this story. It’s based on intuition, listening to my heart, what I feel and telepathy.

Anyone care to invest in me?! I’m worth your money. Every penny! But don’t listen to me! Listen to yourself. And if it tells you to set me free financially; I deeply deeply thank thee! Cuz together; we set the world free! For you have shown: that it pays off to listen to yourself; your heart!

The heart: the employer of the greater good! It tells me this: we can all live in ultimate bliss! We can all play all day every day! Just listen to what your heart has got to say! 

My job? Is this! My bliss. My play. All day, every day. Cuz I really do have something to say…(published:7:37 am)