Really?! Awesome!

Despite the energy being brutally intense, I feel incredibly calm. I’m not sure why that is. I feel like a rock, so calm. Upstairs lots of sounds goin’ on but it’s not getting to me. I’m in my own bubble. Somehow I feel so protected. So loved. It’s incredible. Never felt anything quite like it before.

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As a kid I loved viewing the world upside down. I’d be standing on my head for hours at a time. I loved it. Absolutely loved it. (draft saved: 7:22:55) My parents thought it was weird. Not me. I still like it. This afternoon I danced and stretched. It was the best thing I did for myself all day. Besides one other thing. While I was upside down on a big purple ball in the dancing space at the gym, words starting kicking in. It was amazing.

A while ago (word count: 144) a friend of mine sent me a link. I was mesmerized by it. Could not stop listening to the sound of the voice of the lady who was speaking. So soothing, so gentle, so loving. Being upside down reminded me of a question I asked a 16-year old autistic boy telepathically. According to this lady it’s not autism; it’s awesomism. I couldn’t agree more. Being autistic is a gift!! Not shit. Talk about a downer upper ey?!

This lovely kid, well he answered my question. In fact, he did it before I even asked my question. He had picked up on my question before I started to explore his website. I could not believe that one tiny little synchronicity! His fave movie? Me, Myself and Irene. Today while hanging upside down on this big purple ball; it hit me! O jee; he’s been speaking to me (time: 7:30 pm) before I consciously knew he was doing so. 

That’s the thing with telepathy. You pick up on frequencies from peeps you haven’t even met yet. But this kiddo, well he led me to his website. I’ve asked for a sign to know it’s really him. This afternoon I realized I had already gotten my sign before I even asked for one. The sign? The movie. I know, prett-ay groovy. 

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So yes, picking up on frequencies of peeps you haven’t even met yet. That’s pretty cool if you ask me. And I can’t help but wonder about Chili. Would he have known he’s been speaking to me telepathically since back in January ’09, when out of the blue I made that paper heart of mine? Dunno, my guess would be: no. But, I like to be surprised.

And that is exactly what happened to me, this afternoon around five. I was walking amongst the trees it being pretty rainy. Suddenly this voice comes thru. It wasn’t the trees. It was a voice (word count: 444) from someone on his knees. (time: 7:37) The voice proposed something to me.

After that I started getting really chilly. I wanted to run ‘home’, but I stopped to write. I couldn’t bring anything home while sitting in this coffeeshop. I dropped my pen and went back to the cellar, with in my mind this more than stellar question. There have been many times I’ve written: as within, so without. Without a doubt. 

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In the beginning of my journey, daily, I would draw an angel card. They’re purple and gold. I love ‘em. But after a while I stopped using them. It’s been ages since I last picked up the deck of angel cards. I stopped using them because they kept showing me, very annoyingly, time after time after time, this one thing: marriage. Than this happened and I finally I got what that angel card was about.

I’ve doubted my sanity a lot in the beginning of this journey. No longer do I believe I’m crazy. I’m incredibly insane! The world around me? It’s not up to me to judge thee but I do know I no longer need to be upside down to view the world in a more mature and sensible way. I guess starseeds like to be upside down. Reminds ‘em of home. Where everything makes way more sense. 

Talk about supsense. Is it killing you too? It’s starting to get a lil grip on me too, but I’m letting it be. My answer to you? (time: 7:44) Jim Carrey must’ve made that movie especially for us. He picked up on it telepathically before we even knew it was meant to be.

Did (word count: 703) you know? Not me… That one other thing I did for myself today that was really good? My answer for you. But really good doesn’t cut it. Not by far. But we’ll get to that scene. Won’t we? (published at 8:08 pm)