Gifts

July 2009;

Though I could be off  ’bout the exact date in time.

No longer do ‘fixed’ appointments make me feel fine.

I’ve totally surrendered to where I’m being led; I never know what’s next.

Though lately; it’s been kinda crazy;

silent.

Two months into me writing; no longer for me was there any hiding;

in knowing that I can trust the words that appear;

from somewhere in here.

Over and over it said: “Don’t get upset!”

“Release your worries ’bout money; even though you are broke a lot and think it’s not funny;

the Universe provides!”

Now that it’s ten months later, I have to say:

just when I needed it, money always came my way.

Even though I’ve been hungry at times;

I never whined; for I knew;

in panic and fear;

miracles have a hard time to appear.

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Many miracles I have experienced.

The one that really stood out; came about;

through Divine intervention.

The next story is not an invention.

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In my bank account: nothing left; in my wallet just a small amount of cash.

July 2009, 7 pm; I really feel like goin for a bike-ride n then sit and jam;

with my pen.

I end up at a place; I had never before showed my face.

All the while thinking:” This is odd; why is this where I sit and stop?”

I was feeling utterly relaxed; next;

pulls up this car and a man steps out.

The second he did; I went like: “Shiiiit… what is this?!” 

Right away I knew; this man wants to talk to me.

To each other we were perfect strangers.

I did not say a thing; until the Divine let the words for him come in.

Small talk at first; but I could sense his ‘thirst’; to chat.

I liked his energy; and before we knew it, we were three hours in.

We chatted about life, meta-physics and feelings.

No hidden agenda’s; just a mutual click and an understanding that something like this;

could not have been anything less; than a Divine mess.

He never intended to go to that place, where I also for the first time showed my face.

All he wanted was to take a spin; in his car; but he went way far!

45 minutes later; from a driver he went to a meta-physics debater.

All he knew in ‘facts’; was translated by me into the abstract.

We met where science and spirit now are beginning to meet.

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Ok… maybe it’s time to leave.

He sees; I’m on my bike; asked if he could give me a ride.

“No, I’m fine; it only takes 15 minutes of my time; to get to ‘my’ place;

besides I love to ‘race’; on my bike.”

“Can I call some time?”

I said:”Sure, that’s fine, but my phone is cutt off, so e-mail for now should do.”

“How much do you need to pay; to get your phone up and working again to say: “Hey!”

I said: ” Ah, ’round a hundred bucks.”

He walks over to the ATM and damn!!

You know what he did?

Got two hunderd dollars for this miss!

“Here take it!”

And so I did.

My phone I re-connected it; from then on it worked another month and a half for this miss.

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By trusting myself and my intuition; I knew the money I was handed was purely a Divine Intervention.

Had I let my ego-self get in the way, I would’ve said: “Ney!”

Too proud to take; what wasn’t fake; but could’ve been ready to make;

for me; due to listening to my inner voice you see!

No romantic-feelings were involved at all; we both made the call;

“This happening is truly special y’all!”

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A day later he e-mails me:

“I don’t know what happened; and this might sound crazy;

but being with you was healing for me;

I just gotta know; whether this was a one time show;

and whether you are for real!”

He said:”I’ve got to meet you again, trust me; I’m not trying to be your man!”

I knew what he meant and the next ‘event’;

was an afternoon trip to nature, Whistler and a dinner.

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“Wow! I don’t know how you do it, but everytime I leave your space; I feel so much better in my own maze.”

That’s what I would say, to my psych.

She ain’t your typical ‘doctor’; she’s got the papers ‘n all, but understands what is out there what you can’t see;

that that really is what sets us free!

Now I know what she did!

Without knowing it; I used the same ‘trick’!

It’s the power of Now!

While experiencing it you can’t say;”Wow!”

For when ‘in it’; you don’t know you are.

Time stands still; no room for being ill, worrying ’bout a bill; or that you might want to kill;

yourself.

That’s why creating is so important!

It takes you out of your mind; while creating you are being to yourself super kind.

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We were both aware; while on the way to the spot that we first ended up;

that is was funny how we got there; that both of us could not stop;

to getting to this coffeeshop.

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Where does this story lead to?

I’ll give you a clue!

In my bank account 38 dollars left.

So I was thinking:”Mmm, I wonder what’s next..”

Then words came pooring in, for this story to begin.

Since I started to write; never did I have to ask for money; always just in time;

I’d be fine…

Now I’m guided to write this post;

for this host; put a button on her page;

which shows pay-pals ‘face’.

If you feel from within; that its not a sin;

to donate some money for this honey.

She does think it’s funny; as these last words are spoken;

as a token;

of appreciation from herSelf!

It’s her higher Self speaking; for miss Apple still thinks its a bit ‘greedy’

and might come accross as needy; to ask for money so she can feed herself and if she’s lucky buy something else;

than just the bare minimum to ‘survive.”

You see, a belief in her is ingrained; that you don’t ask for what you need.

Now she can let that go;

for dropping that belief will show;

it will provide her with some dough!

Know; that it is a good investment;

the return that you get; is something you might not expect:

Love and appreciation.

And hopefully after reading these writings, no longer hesitation;

to listen to yourself!

For this elf has been doing so very courageous the last ten months.

By learning to trust herself and no one else;

she’s come to love herself.

So should you!

Don’t listen to me; listen to you!

It’ll guide you from clue to clue;

while be-ing in the NOW.

That, is healing; no need for all that kneeling!

Answers are within; now let the donating begin!

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Wow….that took me by surprise.

I had no idea where this ‘story’ was gonna go to;

had an incling; then in came my sweet ‘fling’.

Got nothing much to add; except THANK YOU in advance!