Twins

This morning I woke up, look at my clock and it’s 4.01.

Add it up and wadda ya got?

That’s right; five!

Before going to sleep, I said to myself:” This night in my dream I want an answer to all I don’t see!

And when I wake-up, I re-member all that’s been given to me in the dream!”

When I said this, my heart was fully in it.

I wanted a good night of sleep too, but wakin’ up at 4.01; I ain’t slept too long.

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The dream was absolutely stunning!

I was speechless for a few minutes, had to let it sink in and then it hit me: OMG!!

The dream had to do with a movie theatre, my twin-flame and me.

I also said, when I made my request:”I want to be awake within the dream!”

The dream was so clear, something I’d never before seen….

I guess they call it a lucid-dream. 

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My oldest twin-brother lives in Canada as well.

It’s close to Regina where he’s at.

He’s chasing his dream, to someday with his twin-brother have his own farm.

Last summer his twin-brother came to visit him, just for a week. 

It’s each other they always seek. 

When the youngest left, the oldest gave me a call. 

His voice was so ‘closed’ off, I could hardly hear him talk.

Then he was silent.

He didn’t say a thing.

I asked:…………”Stefan, are you crying?”

Quietly he said: “…..Yes”.

Now I was quiet too. 

My heart broke in two. 

Twins should be together; not apart, just ain’t clever. 

In that moment I wish I could’ve crawled through the phone, to give him a hug. 

He said:”It’s all good, but its just tough you know, there are times when you just have to let each other go..”

I said:” I know, you each gotta find your own rythm and flow, but when he’s ready, he’ll find his way back to you!”

Bart, the youngest, is still in Holland, living a dead-end… 

He ain’t happy, makin’ with himself amends. 

The other day I saw a photo of him: he gained a little weight.

That’s when I knew: ascension water retention had gotten to him too!

Now that I’m writing this, I’m gettin’ one after the other clue…joohoo!

Word count: 377

I was born in 77.

As an individual I am whole; together in a relationship I want it to be one plus one is three!

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My oldest brother, HJ, but still younger than me;

I’ve not heard from him in years you see.

As kids we used to be very close, but then I chose to go overseas.

He’s one of the few, who doesn’t have a computer, let alone an email address.

My phone ‘s been cut-off on and off; now the infrequent sparingly chattin’ also stopped.

He always felt left out of everything; I think he’s been hit the hardest in our family.

Literally…

He is a total sweetheart though.

He would do for you just about anything.

I often wonder what it will take for him, to bring;

all the pent-up pain up.

I pray that for them, the illusion would stop.

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4.01 is five.

In a family of five, I grew up to live my life.

Then I set my alarm, to outsmart the angels and see 5.55 am.

They’d do it to me anyways, damn!

But I’m a good sport; enjoying the ride. 

I know I’ll get my sleep; just in time!

What is it I don’t see?

Do I need to be hit over the head, my love to be met, to see the unexpect? 

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I re-read my post.

Almost ready to hit the publish button, this host.

Then I realize:” My dad is from a family of five too!!”

His youngest sister died in her early thirties.

Didn’t I tell you that story?

As a kid I thought that would also be my glory…

But, wait a minute….

I died too…just not the way we’re used too.

Does that mean, I’m now living her dream????

Is that why, a few days ago, I could really feel her presence?

The one I told you about, has a very beautiful essence?

Where is this story gonna go??

I don’t know, minute after minute, hour by hour, day by day, I’ll continue to stick to what my intuition’ll say! 

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Did I mention that in the dream, my twin-flame went to acting-school and wanted to act real bad?!

My mate, was waiting for me, at the theatre to go on a date.

But I got held-up, things around me made me stop.

I was peaceful and calm, but kept thinkin’: ” I can’t do a half-hour drive just in five minutes?”

Will he still be at the theatre, be there, when I appear?

I was surprised he even wanted with me, go on a date, my mate.

In this dream, or so it seemed…..

Before he left for the theatre, he had a lady walkin’ by his side.

Didn’t seem ‘t was in a romancy way of life.

He left her behind, to at the theatre, wait for me….

Will we re-unite? When will it be?

Or is there something I still don’t see…?! 

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I re-read this post again.

Thought it was done, ready to post.

But then this question came to your host:

“What is it with my twin-brothers and me?

What is it I don’t see?”

Readers, can you help me?!

I used to think of them and me as one plus one is three.

You see;

The twins are one, I am one, together we are three.

What am I missin’ that will give this answer for free?

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Last night, I thought, ha this is the end…from all the writing a little tired and ‘spent’. 

Boy am I wrong!

Now, now…. it’s really gonna begin!